Hi Mcspaz,

First of all you are lucky that you care about your family and they, you. It's unfortunate that your mom is under so much stress though, as it is also affecting you. As for you ex, breaking up is a tough thing to go through especially as you did not initiate it. It's good that you are so self aware and are able to express yourself so very clearly. Hopefully your venting will help ease your anxieties and thoughts of death. Could you sit your mother down one day and have a good talk with her? Does she know how devastated you are about the breakup? She might not realize how unhappy you are. Or is there someone like a school counselor you could talk to? As for your ex, it's hard to predict what will happen. You are both young and people sometimes grow in different directions. If that is the case, that is part of life, as painful as it is. Well, I hope that you can gradually work things out for yourself. Take small steps and be prepared for disappointment, but don't give up. You have a family who loves you and that is worth living for. Take care-Terry