(((((((((WysteriaBlue))))))))))

That sounds really hard

There have definitely been times when I've been in great distress that I just can. not. understand. what T is trying to tell me. I'll even tell him "I know you're saying words, but I have no idea what they mean"...and that does help, because it tells him to make it very simple, and very short.

If you can't reach T (which is SO familiar to me...my T tends to "vanish" on the weekend), could you call pdoc? You said that he was emphasizing that he was on call this weekend....maybe just getting that support will calm things down inside a little bit.

Good for you for reaching out. That is the right thing to do.