I'm so sick of myself and i think everyone else should be too.
I'm so selfish and i cant help it.
I know i need to take myself away from my friends and stop inflicting them with my crazy ways, but i cant do that cause i need them WAY TOO much.
They'd be better off with out me.
I need the strength to walk away, get my head sorted so i can actually be a proper friend and not a paranoid, anxious, possessive, insecure waste of space mess that i am now.
i'm up, i'm down and round and round and i dont know where i'm going or coming from, i cant form my own opinions because i cant think straight, the voices in my head are telling me how rubbish and awful i am and that everyone is so much better off without me.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh, i'm seriously going crazy.