(((Salmacis))) Sorry you are in this spiral of 'disappointment'. I know this sounds corny but I believe the energy I send out comes back to me in this universe. I was in 'survivor' mode for most of my life and until I got out of that mindset I wasn't truly living (I was just accepting what I was given instead of going out and getting what I need). I feel like I'm really living now for the first time and I'm surrounded by positive people with positive energy. It took me a while to get where I am but it can happen.

I'm now on a path that I never thought I would be on. I've put myself out there and have kept my mind open to possibilities. I now have a new dream/positive direction and it all started with just one small step in a positive direction. One step has built into many steps and my life looks promising and I have hopes and dreams that I never imagined.

Wishing you comfort on your journey.