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Originally Posted by widgets
I'm so sick of myself and i think everyone else should be too.
I'm so selfish and i cant help it.
I know i need to take myself away from my friends and stop inflicting them with my crazy ways, but i cant do that cause i need them WAY TOO much.
They'd be better off with out me.
I need the strength to walk away, get my head sorted so i can actually be a proper friend and not a paranoid, anxious, possessive, insecure waste of space mess that i am now.
i'm up, i'm down and round and round and i dont know where i'm going or coming from, i cant form my own opinions because i cant think straight, the voices in my head are telling me how rubbish and awful i am and that everyone is so much better off without me.
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh, i'm seriously going crazy.
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Relationships are a 2-way street. If they cannot take being your friend, it is their loss. Friends are supposed to know things about you and accept you for who you are.
You are definitely not a waste of space. You are a very important person, and DO NOT listen to voices in your head. I know you started an anti-pyschotic. Are you taking it as prescribed?
If you feel you need a break from your friends for your own health, let them know why you are doing this and they will be there when you are able to come back to them.
Friends are supposed to love you for you, and I am sure your friends do love you for YOU!