I had a really rough patch but it passed. Its so easy to get sucked back in...my T convinced me that living the way I live sometimes is not really living and to ignore how I feel and just concentrate on what I do...do the right thing and ignore the obsessions...I thoyght I was going to die for like a month but I didnt...and now I feel stronger...I really trusted my T..I know its easy to say "just stop doing the compulsions" but thats what I had to do and it worked....took a whole lot of xanax though but it was worth it...now, as soon as it starts I have to nip it in the bud,...once I do the first thing it just snowballs...does anyone here remember me in the backyard at 3Am taking about my air conditioner with a flashlight??!!! Boy was that awful...I know how bad it can be...Hugs to you...It passsed for me and it will pass for you tooo, even though it doesnt feel like it sometimes...