I was talking to my son about this a while ago. Before I was on medication I heard from God all the time, felt His presence so clearly. One reason I was afraid to talk to psychiatrists was because I was afraid they'd see my religion as delusional. Well, I still believe, but I don't seem to care as much anymore. My son asked me did I miss hearing from God, I said yes... of all the things I've lost that one hurts the most. I do not believe that my sense of God was a symptom, but He seems so much more distant now. And the worst thing is that I don't even mind as much as I used to.
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Here I sit so patiently
Waiting to find out what price
You have to pay to get out of
Going through all these things twice.
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