Seriously, is it even possible to have a relationship that's easy and runs smoothly? Where there isn't that push/pull/push/pull/push/pull????? I swear I just wanna rip my hair out sometimes! Why is it that when things are good they're really good, but when they're bad they just really piss me the hell off? I love my bf and I know that everyone says that about theirs... this guy is different than anyone else I've dated and I've been married before. But he is just so inconsistent it drives me crazy! I get the I love you's and talking about our future together, and getting married and having kids one day... then the next I get the I need to get my own place (no we don't live together, he has roommates), and he wants his freedom, and he doesn't want kids anytime soon, and he's just not happy with where he is in life right now. How do you go from one extreme to the next; not wanting to break up just wanting to put me in his friggin pocket and take me out when his life is settled down... I mean seriously, WTF? GROW UP AND FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, YOU'RE AN ADULT!!! I mean you wanna get married and have kids with me, but you want to live by yourself??? Ummm... really... really??? The inconsistencies are driving me insane... or maybe more insane Someone please just clue me in... I mean am I an idiot, just blinded? He says he doesn't want to break up, I've pissed him off before of course, but has never wanted to break up with me... says he doesn't deserve me and that I'm his angel that God brought to him... but he wants to live by himself... really? I've even tried to break up with him because I thought that's what he wanted and he said no and wouldn't let me. I'm so frustrated with this back and forth BS and I just want it to be easy! Then again, I don't know if that's even possible for a borderline! FML