You know, I've struggled with cutting for about 11 years now. I started at 15, stopped at 17, relapsed at 19 (after a rape). Stopped for 7 years, relapsed a few months ago due to a lot of things including a miscarriage, stopped for a month and relapsed last Wednesday. I wish I could tell you the urge goes away, but for me it hasn't. It's always there when I'm hurting and triggered, when I feel out of control. It's so addictive and so easy to fall back into it. Don't let yourself think you'll just do it once and get it out of your system. It doesn't work that way............