Wellllll... I don't think the main reason I want to reconcile is because it will make me feel better about myself. I admit that's not a good reason, but, in my attempt to be honest with myself, I do recognize that perhaps it might be a factor in my desire to reconcile. The main reason I want to reconcile is because I love him.

However, the title of this thread is still applicable and the question is poses has only been partially answered. All of the things we've been discussing in this thread are things I'm taking into consideration.

He did answer me about whether he believes all of our problems are my fault. He doesn't; at least, not consciously.

Did I mention we're 4,000 miles apart and there are no counselors in the remote part of Alaska he's in? So that sort of complicates things, as far as me trying to get him into counseling. That may have to wait until he gets back.