Aww geesh --- a double bed is only 4 inches smaller than a queen.. Well if I change my bed, guess it will have to be a single bed because 4 inches isn't going to give me much more room.... My queen size bed takes up 80% of my room...

The guys I have been with were guys I really cared about and loved. I wanted to have sex with them. Unfortunately, the outcome was not pleasant for me.. But then I didn't remember the childhood stuff until I was in my early 40s. Even remembering the past did not change my reactions during sex or after..

When I remembered the past (I don't know how I reacted as a child to the stuff happening or exactly what happened) but anyway I was determined to change my reactions. For whatever reason, no matter how much I was determined and tried, the dirty feelings, dry heaves whatever happened without my consent.. So maybe it has nothing to do with childhood? Guess I was just wondering...