hello and welcome to psychcentral

I have been in psychiatric hospitals and in my experience it was a cross between a prison and a zoo.

I have been on meds, this one, then that one, trying to find one that helped me and some of them had unpleasant side effects. But my doc found the mix of meds that helps me and I have been stable for four years. I understand your frustration of taking meds that not only do not help but they have side effects that make you feel worse.

I hope you find psychcentral community helpful.