thanks all, I will try these weeks with writing less in the mood diary and continue to keep my journal.

I agree the journal is more for me to sort out my feelings thoughts and so on, I wasn't going to embelish to a therapist due they are long.
with some days like two or three weeks ago I was going throw rapid swings, makes it hard to get everything down, and Idk its sometimes hard to depict for me if I'm over reacting or if my agitation is ''normal'' with things...
Suicidal and self injury thoughts I neglect to write I noted a week ago, Idk why, they are rather important. I will try harder to be more organized I guess.

Very helpful suggestions everyone thanks again