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Old Mar 17, 2006, 09:47 AM
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justsignmeupalready said:
my T convinced me that living the way I live sometimes is not really living and to ignore how I feel and just concentrate on what I do...do the right thing and ignore the obsessions...

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Hey there.... I FIRMLY believe that those words I quoted you on are dead on... If we can truly examine what we go through and realize that obsessing is NOT really living - it is letting our disease(s) get the best of us, waste our time, cause more un-just grief, etc. etc. Now we all know how difficult it can be, however I have written this phrase down, plastered it across the house, and can use it in SO many different ways... I firmly believe that it is appliacable to every-day life as well... Living my life worrying about the next PA, the next rage/manic episode, etc. is far from me 'living'.. It is my diseases/disorders running my life. Relying on xanax (yep - can't go anywhere w/out those either!!) gets me through this - but my main objective, in addition to doing whatever it takes to get to as best a point I can be, is to QUIT relying so heavily on that med. I force myself to go as long as I can w/out it, but the second I know I might - just might - have to go somewhere, that bottle better be right in my hands...

Needless to say, I want to sincerely thank you for those words.. What a sort-of 'obvious', yet realistic, concept!!! I sure hope you and the rest are doing as best as you can and you are all in my thoughts and/or prayers.. Take it easy Niko
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