Childhood abuse can definitely affect your enjoyment of sex as an adult. I was physically abused, not sexually, and it's still a mess for me to be physically intimate. So you are definitely not alone with this struggle.
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For whatever reason, no matter how much I was determined and tried, the dirty feelings, dry heaves whatever happened without my consent..
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I wonder if it is like your body is trying to say something. Maybe some part of you wasn't comfortable in those situations and this was the only way you could express it. It strikes me that you say these reactions happened "without your consent," because the abuse happened without your consent, too. It seems like an important connection.