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Well, I don't know about schizoaffective disorder. I do know about PTSD and that it doesn't have to be one event, it can be several events and it can be an onion with layers of intrusive events that took place in your past. And all the experiences and feelings you are describing are symptoms of PTSD and that layer of experiences that carry many surpressed emotions in your past. And yes, having a bad day can result in being exausted and not wanting to get out of bed or even a great desire to isolate and not really understanding why.

I wonder about your diagnoses as well because often the symptoms and reactions of having PTSD can cause a therapist or even a psychiatrist to misdiagnose someone with symptoms of complex PTSD with symptoms that may appear to be some other disorder.

I would suggest that you make sure that you are no longer a guinea pig, you have the right to your own mental health. And I would strongly suggest that you find a therapist that is truely knowledgeable about PTSD and how to treat it. And that can be hard to find. PTSD is still being studied and more and more is being learned and understood about it almost every day. And most people that have it are very misunderstood, even by themselves. Oh, I can raise my hand on that one. But as I have been taking the time to peel away my onion, I can definitely see and feel all the symptoms that you are describing. But now that I understand it better and am working at my own layers I am not as confused and frightened and even lonely like I was.

One of the symptoms of PTSD is that when someone experiences something scarey they have a tendency to have a heightened sense of hypervigillance. And often they don't realize it. And when you say, just for starters it makes me wonder about wether you are being misunderstood by therapists, psychiatrists, and even yourself.

So make every effort to make sure you see a specialist in PTSD. Dont go on any new medication until you look into that first. You need to make that a priority. And if you do see a new pdoc make sure you express that concern. And start keeping a journal, it really sounds like you are experiencing triggers that bring out upsetting emotions and fears from your past that you are truely not aware of.

I am not a specialist, but I do have PTSD and I have been misunderstood, even by myself. You deserve to know exactly what you are struggling with.

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