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Originally Posted by billi_leli
it's 2 years later now since my aunt passed.
I would want someone to take me in their arms and comfort me and let me cry all day long, too.
And still I am desperately trying to find someone, somewhere where where there is space for me to grive and cry all day without guilt...
Billi  |
My aunt had that.
She had T. (executor) and others to hold her and comfort her.
What the h about me???!!!
G*d I am so angry!
Not fair! it feels like.
I am grateful for my mentor and for Dane.
But I still can't quite open up and cry because I was not encouraged to.
Now I have to cry in my sleep because at least then if Bruce (roommate) catches me, I can tell him it's something else.
He hates it when I cry.
When my husband tries to hold me, I shut down because I still feel like I have no right to cry.
Billi