I went to T today, and we did get into some pretty deep stuff about my low self-esteem and how I set too high of expectations for myself, etc. Near the end of session, we came to the topic of my memories from past years in school, and how it seems like I can't let myself move on from them as I am constantly comparing my "current" anxiety level to that of my past, i.e. if it's become better or worse and how I feel about that improvement or lack of etc. Basically what it comes down to is that my past memories won't let me improve for good. T told me that she wants to start processing this, I'm assuming through EMDR or something of the sort. Here's the problem, and my reason for posting this thread: She and I (especially me) feel that two weeks between sessions is an awfully long time to go when working with processing and the anxiety that will come with it. I really would like to start scheduling weekly sessions instead of biweekly, but my parents are against it as we have one of the higher co-payments and can't afford to go more often. Here's my idea. I'm working now, and making roughly about $100 a week if I work 4 or more shifts. My parents could pay for biweekly sessions as they do now, and I could do the same. We'd alternate weeks so that I'd pay for example the second and last weeks of a month, they would pay the first and third, they'd keep paying the same, and half of my check every other week would go to therapy. This is probably going to be temporary - as long as we're working on this stuff. I'm willing to pay for part of my own therapy. It's my responsibility if I want more sessions. I'm having a hard time bringing this up with my parents, though - I already broached the subject with them and it only served to worry them more. So I don't know what to do about this

Thanks for reading this...sorry I haven't been around as much lately, but in the past week I've gone from sitting on my arse around the house all day to working 4 days in a row. It seems like all I can think about.

Do you think this sounds like a bad idea? This is what I want - what else have I got to spend my paycheck on? I am going to put some of it away as I'm planning on getting a tattoo in a year that is going to cost some bucks, and the rest I would either spend on therapy and stuff for school or whatever..

What do you think? Suggestions?

Thank you (((((hugs)))))