I've hoped before, I had faith she could do it before, and I even once believed she could nip this addiction (crack cocaine) in the ***.....but I always proved wrong and betrayed like an idiot.

My moms been using crack since I was 13, I am now 20, and she still has a strong...life consuming...crack addiction. She has ruined alot this past 2 years with my Grandma's terminal illness, my pregnancies, and my sisters pregnancy.

She has taken 3 grand and much much more from me in the past year.

Well she calls me telling me she joined a outpatient, 6 hour a day, drug treatment program. She says that they do drug screenings and if she comes up dirty they will admit her into inpatient, residential treatment.

I want to have hope, and I want to believe her, but I don't. I mean that would be great to get my mom back because I really need her, and I have needed her in the last couple years.....but if she did not get sober for my babies, why would she get sober for my sisters.

She says that's why she's ready to get sober.

I don't know, all I know is if she don't do something soon, she will die within the next year or so from od, drug deal gone wrong, or a mad john....which ever she will die.

I hope she can save her own life and save the little bit that she has of her original self.....it would be nice to see her again.