I know what you mean, ddizzy. Especially about the voices. Hopefully your meds kick in enough to where you can start forming healthy coping habits & strengthen your relationship with your girlfriend. Chances are, she feels as hopeless to help you as you do. One site I just found yesterday that might help you deal with things aside from medication is livingmanicdepressive.com. I'm trying to implement some of the self-management strategies myself, like monitoring my moods, as well as trying to form venues of communication with my significant other even if I am having a hard time doing so.