Thank you everyone. well..where to start? Most people on here know my financial situation because I recieved a grant from PC (Thank God for all of you people) My Therapist is away all month and I have another health issue besides a pilonidal cyst. I hurt myself trying to get the air conditioner downstairs and when I picked it up to install it, I heard and felt a pop in my back. My doctor said to go to the ER which I did. They x rayed my back and told me I strained it and to go home and take muscle relaxants. It still hurt weeks later so I went to the doctor who ordered an MRI. It showed I have a compression fracture of L5. If I hadn't found out, I could have ended up in a wheel chair.
The depression is back with a vengance. I sleep the day away and am up all night. We are unable to pay our monthly bills and I'm constantly getting calls from those I owe. After 25 calls in one day, I lost it and started screaming at the poor woman. I don't know how long this unemployment will last (it's been over two years with no unemployment insurance)
I've lost patience with myself; many have it worse than I do. I'm just so tired of not being able to afford the simplest of things. I should be grateful I have a roof over my head.
I truely hate being dependant on people to help me do the most basic housework. I feel like nothing...not being able to do anything meaningful makes me feel so worthless and feeling like I take up too much air.
There's my rant...I'm sorry but it's all too much . I guess it was cumulative and snuck up one me.