My work persona is so perfect, so capable, so able to do it all that no-one realizes it's all lies.

So, I cry every time I sit down to work. I pray I get let go so I can take a break. I wish for a car wreck or to fall down the stairs so I can just get off the hamster wheel. I can't do this anymore. This is crazy. I'm becoming crazy because of it. I'm supposed to be doing the work of 3 people and I'm barely a full person myself. I'm the only breadwinner in the house. I'm tired. I'm scared. I'm stressed. I'm making myself sick and I don't know what to do to stop it.