i have to say ive been in a decent mood these past few days,then today comes in the mailbox there r the bills late bills shut off bill 30days to pay,i was ill in october & had no insureance to get the proper help so im still not stabel,im looking at the bills & theres not alot of money in there i tried to break them down prioritize them how do you do that they all need paid right ,then i start its my fault i should be working mind you i was onely working part time,& back in december my husbands buissness partner decided to cancel our ins cause his family didnt need it but my 1 med cost $900 a month but az& me gives that to me for free thank god ,any way i gotta deal with who am i gonna pay & how much do i need for food i have 2 hungry growing boys that eat me out of the house in 2 days after food shopping & they go back to scholl soon so what am i gonna due i tried to tell my husband tonight how high the bills were & he says i dont wanna know i just make the money you deal with it nice im depressed cause i dont have a job i hate food shopping i have a eating disorder so its hard for me to pick out food when i fell i can do without not really but i can go a couple days just liveing on mountain dew love the stuff anyway whay am i saposta do it all falls on my shoulders & nobody wants to help i do have my one friend come over & help me he is more like a father to me but i feel bad doing that cause he has to see me go threw panic attaks & mood swings its not fare for him but thats what makes him my bestfriendi gave myself till tomarrow to figure it out!they say money wouldent make a difference all you need is love when then why is it if you dont have it there is tention & fights about it i wouldent be as sick as i am but i cant get the proper help cause i dont have money ,im frustrated i just needed to vent ,
thanks that felt good ! now maybe i can sleep ! goodnight all!