(((((((((((((((((anne and all)))))))))))))))))))

I know it's difficult. I'm glad you got the pill box. excellent call and suggestion.

As far as helping this other to feel safe, I try to get my hands busy on something that can calm and attract "all of me" (i.e. paint by number, puzzle, etc.) It majorly helps with stabalization for the moment. The wonderful feeling usually stays with me as well.

Integration is possible and more wonderful than I can put into words. I hesitate saying that because not everyone is for integration, which I respect. However, it seems your goal so I will discuss it here.

I wasn't even looking for integration, I couldn't understand the concept even. I simply could not comprehend, then WOW. I just happened. Inside is so much more content. I looked inside and noticed the change and the peace, contentment, knowledge and order AND there's NO loss...NONE. Everyone is still there, just in the same room, sharing and knowing everything so much so that they're now one. Imagine a box full of crayons...basic colors of red, yellow, black, green, blue and white. Melting and blending those do not take away the colors. They're just combined to make a different hue. The basic colors aren't gone at all. They can been seen in the new beautiful color which would not be without the base colors which were blended.

I know without a doubt, for the first time in my life, that we are going to make it. Will I ever be one? I doubt it, but what has taken place is more than wonderful. The journey is hard, sweetie, and we didn't ask for it. But we WILL make it...we already have.

PM anytime you'd like.

KD