MUE - what I'm gaining is more awareness of my own needs and my own wants. You say that you're experiencing only loss right now and that's true. But you will get in touch with your true Self and will find ways to nurture and nourish that part of yourself. That is what is happening to me. I'm slowly getting less worried about pleasing others when that has been detrimental to my own mental health. These past few months have held amazing transformation for me and I am doing things that I would never have thought of in years past. For me, it has been the result of therapy.

I wish you luck and I believe that things will only turn out well for you in the end.