I've been becoming increasingly more depressed since the spring. It seems like I'm losing interest in everything I love or am committed to one by one. Now I'm at the point of wanting to quit therapy altogether. It seems like all we've been doing since July is discussing whether or not I should go on meds and it doesn't feel productive. I have almost seven months sober, and I've been in therapy for about seven months... And I just want to quit seeing my T and go back to drinking. I don't see the point in trying anymore. I don't have hope that meds will help, I don't see progress in T, so why keep trying? Why am I sober just to be miserable? I don't know... I don't know what to do. I don't know if my depression is causing my doubts of my T, or if maybe T really isn't a good fit for me. I don't feel like I'm expressing myself well in this post, I'm sorry. I'm feeling discouraged and hopeless and I don't know what else to do.
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