it feels like there is no hope for me in this life. Im a christian, but what i hear make me want to kill myself. Im not blaming our church. its just right now i cant take what i hear, i guess. I am ill.. so i'd guess there would be a little lee way for me. but all i get is condemnation and accusation. I guess thats what makes it a trial, right? =P

being driven up a wall, Josh