I mentioned one week that I felt like I suck at therapy, and the following week she took charge. It made me think that perhaps she felt I thought like she was doing something wrong. And I don't know if I feel like she's doing something wrong. I haven't been in therapy for years so I don't feel like I have anything to compare it to. But she's pushing the meds thing, and sometimes I wonder if her positive view of me is skewed, and things just feel off.

It kind of feels like the depression talking, but it's difficult to feel separate from depression when I'm so all up in it. And yeah, I am trying to find a pdoc. It's a struggle because I'm unemployed and uninsured, but I've made some calls and still have some options to explore if those fall through.
Waiting while depressed makes time go by very. very. slowly.