It definitely seems like it is the depression talking. And when we are that far buried in it, it's hard to imagine a way out. You've been sober for 7 months, that is quite an accomplishment, don't lose sight of that. With alcohol being taken out as a coping skill, there really needs to be a wide range of coping skills put in place to help you manage in ways that can help you emotionally regulate yourself.

I usually only really press for medication if I am almost certain that there is a chemical imbalance. Between now and the time you get linked to a psychiatrist, I would ask T to really focus on distress tolerance skills when depression is over taking you. With drinking being taken out of your "tool box", there needs to be other tools in place, otherwise we do feel hopeless and helpless.

Can you find things to do to keep you active or productive or busy instead of waiting? That definitely will make time drag by and escalate the negative feelings.

I wish you well CoY. (((hugs)))