(((((moonbeam))))
Hang in there. Breathe.
Look at the moon, and breathe.

I know, I hate it when type a long post and you try to submit it and it goes to ask you to re-login, and your whole hour's works is GONE. I learned to highlight whole thing and Ctrl-C (or apple-C if you're on Mac) before getting near that submit or preview key, and still I manage to wipe it out occasionally by some way where a backspace backs up the browser page. GRRRRR!

Type your post in Notepad, that is safest, then copy/paste.

Do you have help. A therapist? Are you taking any drugs - perhaps they need to be changed.

Hugs
sun