HI, I am in the process of going into treatment for an ED. I dont have a specifice ED but I am under the diagnois of EDNOS (eating disorder not otherwise spieicified) i used to have anorexia and i have some issues of Bullemia. I dont Binge but Occasionally I throw up. Not as much! since meds are helping me with this. I am so scared now. I want to live a normal life and funcion normal but I am so afraid that I am going to get heavier and heavier. I am on meds that I think are making me gain weight and I dont know what to do. I am constantly hearing that voice to throw up and dont eat this. I tried calling a oncall dr from my therapist area when I was anxious but they didnt call back for an hour and a half and I lost it!!!!! I tried to vomit but Couldnt. So i stopped!!!!!! I am so scared!!!!! or BETTER YET THAT ***** IN MY HEAD (THE EATING DSORDER ) IS AFRAID OF GETTING WELL! ANYONE OUT THERE THAT I CANT TALK TO AND HELP COMFORT ME WHO ISNT INTO SUPPORTING STARVING OR THROWING UP!!!!!! HELP!