i know this is going to sound really stupid but all i want to do these last few days is just listen to my T voice. she could be reading a cookbook for all i care and i would listen. her voice is so calming . i don't know if it is what she is saying ,how she is saying it,or the tone she is using as she says it. know it sounds ridiculous and stupid but it feel good.las session i was so panicked and scared and her voice was so calming and it helped me to not be so messed up in my head.things made a little sense for just a little while.

all i can think of how a little kid or baby would feel when all upset and the mother comes and hugs it and talks to it until it is calmed down and feeling better.calm ,cared about,safe.or how it must feel to fall asleep with the mother reading a story.it feels good,safe, calming,and dangerous.this is why it terrifies the he!! out of me.i know i should probably tell her so that she could stop it .i know I'm not suppose to feel this way but i am also scared of what she would do instead.i don't want her to start being cold and hard toward me in order for me not to feel this way.IDK sorry for whining on about it i just needed to say something .thanks if you read all this.

I'm glad i use to read to my son every night and would hug and talk to him when he would be so upset or hurt.i hope it made him feel good