Chocco and Mgran - Thank you both for taking the time to respond to my post. You both see your children for who they really are. I am trying to accept that my son is different and not just a diagnosis. Since I came from an abusive family I want my son to have so much more and then some of what I never got.

I feel like he is in a world just like I was. He is different and no one understands why. I feel I have to explain him to everyone and that others are judging me as a bad parents. People will wonder why he isn't talking and why he is still in diapers and why this or why that. Why can't he just be like normal kids?

It's just still so heart wrenching for me.