Gently1 - my T is good at trying to get me to focus on the body. And that's what I will practice today.

Perna- Yes, that's right about how it feels 'now'. And, I must say, my T is also good at that. I will bring in some random historical event and she will switch the conversation to how it made me feel and how it feels talking about it now.

What I'm going to attempt for the next 6 hours before session is mindfulness. T has talked to me about this and I've never really put it into practice unless I'm too emotionally wound up.

If I succeed in applying that method today, then it will be clear I don't need therapy anymore. So, whenever thoughts come up that I think I want to discuss in session, I will try to switch to the "here and now" and notice my physical surroundings OR if the thought produces some emotion, maybe I'll go 'sit' with the emotion and 'watch' it.

What I'll try to avoid is too much thinking. Then when I enter T's office, I will let come forth what comes forth.

This approach makes me feel exceedingly vulnerable. My instinct is to avoid feeling emotions and loosening the controls might lead to scary uncharted territory.

I wonder if I'll be able to pull this off.