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Originally Posted by Wysteria
Hi SD-
Actually I find it a gift to learn how to deal with people and my own emotions so that I am not always afraid and so that I see things more in perspective so everything does not always seem so enormous and so distorted. I think therapy is all about connection and learning how to reach out and find that we are Not alone and the we can share our burdens safely and find that we are not so different from millions of others on this planet. Then learning how to deal with the situations and pain in a meaningful way to reduce the hurt and increase the joy and gratitude for what we DO have in life.
Am I there yet...oh..H*$%, NO!! But at least I see the differences, can share/reduce my pain, get glimpses of what it is like to handle things better, and feel my heart expanding....
"You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him find it within himself."
- Galileo
I wish you only peace and healing and the gift of hope for better tomorrows that start today...
Huggles,
Wysteria Blue
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Yes I have been very afraid, there are many things I still find difficult (like using the phone) and I have never had anyone that I have felt close to, to share things with - hoping the "relationship" with T will help me to learn to do this.
Once I did get to a place where I was actually thankful that I had experienced these horrible things. I met a woman that had Downs Syndrome, she was so beautiful, trusting, gentle, pure - I looked at her and found myself feeling so deeply saddened - here I was feeling angry, scared, lost etc.. because of my life experiences, but here was someone else who may never have those opportunities - to experience a sexual relationship, to have a baby, to get married, to go to a beach in Gambia, to own a horse - yes those experiences were (are) so painful for me as they didn't result in a wholely good outcome, but at least I had the opportunities and for that surely I must be grateful.
Thank-you for your kind wishes, yes maybe looking for a more peaceful way of being and trying to form connections with people should be at the top of my agenda. Soup