I think I am beginning to see why I have built this wall around myself. My problem is how do I tear it down? I always thought I was different and that I did not belong. I am understanding now that I have feeling just like everyone else. I just can't or don't express mine. It makes me way to nervous to even write them out. Does it get easier with practice? At this moment my mind is trying to wonder because I was starting to breath harder. Going into panic mood is the norm for me when someone gets to close. I want this anxiety to go way! This can't be good for my heart!