I know how yu feel, tho my bf hasnt abused me physically, or cheated on me I dont think, he does emotionally abuse me nd see's nothing wrong with it, he doesnt see it like that... most guys are idiots, sweetie, it'd be good for yu to move on... go see a doctor maybe try to get some anti-anxiety pills or something to help yu out when it gets too hard to handle... just make yurself hate him, think of all the lies, all the pain he's put yu through... eventually yu will be able to find someone better, there is always someone better, believe me. I hope I helped some..