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Old Aug 17, 2011, 02:06 PM
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Originally Posted by emptybee15 View Post
I agree. However, nowadays, they make it so you can barely survive without these things. Whether or not they are detrimental to yourself worth, all these things have become a necessity in life. All the important things are barely thought of.
Agreed! They do make it so indeed. I have some ideas of who're "they" too, a topic more suited for a different forum.

I am not saying we could all sit on park benches blissing out and someone would feed us, and clothe us, and take us indoors for a night. I think that in the bliss of the now, we can DO anything. We do not have thoughts about how horrible this job is, we do not have fears of failure, we do not have expectations, we do not have comparisons, we do not have fears about other people, and what they may think about us. I could be handed a broom and told to sweep all the walkways in the park and if I do I'll get a sandwhich and that would be the awesomest job that would make me happy. Not that I am suggesting we accept hard labor at slave wages, but imagine going to a job interview with THAT kind of attitude. Interviewing while you DO NOT think of how inadequate you are, and how they can see your worthlessness no matter what you say.

I see how differently people see me when I am in a happy state and when I am not. When I drag myself to the local trail and I am in the depressed/anxious/hating myself mode, people just pass me, but when I am in higher vibration, the bicyclists coming my way look and smile, they do first, I am too tuned in to how great it is to breathe in the air. It startled me a few times, why these fit young good looking people give me such big grins and seek eye contact, what? I walk lighter, I feel taller, maybe in that second or two they pass me they see something beautiful. Yet it is still the same short jiggly michelin body topped with tiny head with some thin hair. Few times I checked my shadow to see if somehow magically I have transformed into a babe. Nope! I just don't feel bad about myself.
Thanks for this!
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