My friend, who is a clinical psychologist, had me over at hers last night, and came back with me today to check I was okay. I was amazed how much she picked up on. She noticed last night when I was hallucinating, which is something I can hide very well, and today when I went "sideways" (that is, she was talking and I couldn't focus on what was going on) she realised something was happening. I suppose it's "dissociating" from how you describe it. She took my hands, and asked me what was happening, and I couldn't speak. She told me to look at her, and I did, asked me what was happening. I said I didn't know, she said, "come on love, use your words", which made me laugh, though I still couldn't think of how to describe it. Later I said I'd gone sideways, which is what it feels like. Other people are talking, and it's like I'm in another place.

I suppose I'm lucky having a friend who's actually qualified to help me!