((((gma45))))
I can relate to the fear of letting your true emotions out. I'm stuck on that same issue myself. For whatever reason, we view some emotions as being more socially acceptable.
Fear and anger are okay. A vague major depression is okay in my mind. But I am very avoidant of
disappointment. For some reason, just saying that word in here makes my heart pound harder and I feel scared (for some unknown reason).
Anyway, I can empathize. Just wanted you to know that I'm right around the corner

Best wishes to you!