I thought you explained yourself very well in your letter, Granite. I get the sense that you have a very keen awareness of your internal struggle. In fact, I never thought of it like that before, but after reading your letter it occurs to me that I have similar struggles. As far as the colors go... I think I can understand that too... Red is strong, it is bold. Pink is toned down, it's colors mixed so it seems more tame. It would make sense to have a strong guardian to care for the parts that need/want protecting. I do think you have a purple, though. You show that part when you continue therapy even though you're scared, and when you share things here with us, and when you practice talking. It takes hope, strength and courage to do all of those things!