forest......iam 55 and have had ocd for well over 30 years and..........anyone who meets me would consider me very "normal"..........i'm well educated, great family life, friends, i don't drink or do drugs.......and i have ocd......i can't diagnos you but you do have some actions that sound like ocd......its nothing to be ashamed of.......a mental illness diagnosis is not a death sentence......i lead a wonderful, productive life with the help of good therapy and meds.......if you continue to obsess over whether you have ocd or not.......you probably should see a professional and either get some help or put the matter to rest.....good luck and if you have any questions..i'd be glad to help you....