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Originally Posted by skysblue
"... and then a mob of furious women appeared at the door and they dragged my friend out. I could see the look of terror on my friend's face as she realized she would be dead in a few moments. I screamed at the mob -'why is she being executed? what did she do wrong?'. And a woman from the crowd answered, '....'"
I got to this portion of the dream and I told T I had to go. T said, "what are you doing? You're bringing me to the edge of the story and leaving me hanging here wondering what happened? Am I being punished?"
And I replied, "Well, time's up". And then I left.
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Well, if that ^ isn't an example of passive-aggression, I don't know what is.
I had about 3 minutes left when I began to tell T about a dream I had a couple of weeks ago. I wasn't able to tell her last week because, "time's up." So, I guess I did want to punish her. I wasn't even realizing I had that motive until she said it.
btw, I did end up telling her the end instead of continuing walking out. It was only 7 more words.
The unscripted session was very weird. I was in a strange bizarre mood. We kept jumping around with topics because I would get bored with one or feel we weren't going anywhere with another. I was quite animated and felt free to express whatever came to mind.
We spent the most time talking about depression and explored how maybe I should think of it as a 'familiar' feeling instead of one of 'depth'. Too complicated to explain here.
Anyways, the session was random and open and somewhat scattered UNTIL, UNTIL the last 10 minutes.
See, T has a light over the door that comes on when her client arrives in the waiting room. We flip a light switch in the waiting room that alerts her that we've arrived.
Well, this guy/gal was 20 minutes early to his session and the light going on where I could see it just triggered some intense anger in me. T apologized for his/her actions and I said sarcastically, "Well, just employ your boundaries. You're good at that."
Man, can you believe I was so rude? I guess having an unscripted session broke down some of the walls holding in my emotions.
T said, "Skysblue, I have never seen you like this." And I said, "Like what, please tell me so I can write it down (said sarcastically again)."
So, what they say (who? - well you know - them) is that stuff will leak out whether you intend to or not.
I hadn't realized that I was holding such anger towards T and now I know and she knows. We only had a couple of minutes to discuss it and then I switched topic to dream.
But the thing is, I doubt if my T will bring this up again and so I can pretend it never happened and we can all live happily ever after (as long as jerko doesn't flip the switch again while I'm in session)