theres a lot going on lately but i haven't even posted about any of it, and i don't even feel like it. I guess i kinda want to share it but i don't feel like having to say it... so i guess I'm writing about how i don't want to talk instead... idk... its so hard to talk sometimes... its like something blocking it.. i have a blog for an upcoming surgery and i haven't even updated stuff about it that has happened... even though theres a lot to talk about, but i just don't feel like it... then stuff with therapy that i don't want to talk about... i don't really know whats wrong with me.. it is making me feel more depressed when i don't share... makes me feel alone and cold.