I don't know if this is a good place for this or not but seeing as how it involves my bipolar I figured I'd put it here.

Tomorrow I have a birthday party to go to. If you knew me, you'd know how big this is. I hate being near people, I get too nervous and don't know what to say. My paranoia kicks in full blast and everything just goes down south from there.

I want to cancel and say I can't go, but I know I can't because my friend (who is someone I haven't spoken to since the school year and we haven't hung out in over three years) said that she can always count on me... Because a lot of people were canceling on her party. So I know I have to go...

I just don't know how I'm going to handle this! I never go out and do anything. I usually stay at home and hide away in my bedroom all day long because that's where I feel happiest and safest.

What should I do?