Thank u Anne, Bipolar Bear, Myself..it's been a rough day.I have tried to structure the best I could to deal with the memories..Myself as usual you are a beacon in the storm..thank you all. I am going to bed with Tiny now..hopefully she will protect me from the monsters, like she used to do..before..you know..uh oh starting to cry again..better go..leaky eyes makes for spelling errors..sniffle...bye..gentle hugs to all..