I'm new here...Dx'd Bi-Polar 1 (2007) after YEARS of being Major Depressive Disorder (due to 1 manic episode that landed me in a psych ward for 1 week). I just find myself totally depressed now more than ever, sick of different medications. I have stopped taking all but Trazadone for sleep. I can't stand this constant depression but I can't stand the drugs and side effects either. I have investigated Trans Cranial Magnetic Stimulation but it costs a tons of money and my insurance (which I am grateful to have) will not pay for it. Of course, they cover ECT! I am so down I have been considering ECT as a last resort but the bottom line is after reading about it it just scares me. Anybody here ever had it for depression? If so, please share your experience---you can send me an email. Thanks in advance.