Dealing with my emotional turmoil takes up most of my day. I find it difficult to break this habit. I'm easily pushed to the edge when I feel slighted by someone I care about and it makes it hard for me to distinguish between what is my own pathology and when someone is being inconsiderate.

People can be inconsiderate but it doesn't mean I need to jump out of my skin; however, I do. When I feel slighted anger boils up inside me and I feel full of "helpless rage." I've been classifying myself as Borderline but that really is only a title. And not a very flattering one. I'm much more than my pathology but that is something I usually forget.

We live in a whole world of others and hunger for their acceptance - most of us anyway. It's a matter of survival and we're programmed to function more effectively in a group. So in order to truly flourish we need to become an important member of the group - when we fail to do that our self-esteem plummets, continue to fail to do that and poof- you have a disorder. It's well documented that the happiest people on earth have a wonderful support network. People who they love and can count on to make their time on this earth as rich and fulfilling as it could be. Problem is I've failed to put that network together and now I search frantically trying to fill all the roles that I should have learned how to fill as a child.

So what am I to do?