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Originally Posted by emptybee15
Nobody that was supposed to encourage me did though, every accomplishment was so downplayed and ignored it doesn't mean anything to me either. 
I just want my brain to stop making all of these thoughts surface on a daily basis. I don't think I'll ever get over this. |
I was in the top one percent of my high school graduating class, and it meant NOTHING. out of 700 kids. PBK, too. Nothing. Reading your post, your last paragraphs jumped out at me. It was a defining moment for me when I realized that all the work I put in thru grade school and high school was for nothing - I wasn't going to get anything more than my brother got for school, and he never did ANY homework. I took extra courses in summer and "zero" hour, never took study hall, and in senior year, actually took TWO classes during the SAME hour and got A's in both! Bumpkiss, that's what I got for it. Cheated? You bet we were. Not surprising that's what we expect now, it was burned into our brains at exactly the wrong time in life with the wrong hormones going on. WTFH. Sorry, not exactly WARM FUZZY supportive, but I getcha. Or you got me.