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Miss Laura · Aug 18, 2011, 02:02 PM

Thank you guys for all your input.... I didn't think anyone was gonna answer as I thougth it was a dumb thing I was asking of you guys. So thank you all!!

Hey Open Eyes... I am actually from Dundee Loch Ness Monster is a fascinating myth that I like too I have Bipolar Type 1 and have struggled with my diagnosis since I got it November 2010. Guess I have always believed I am ok and that there is nothing wrong with me. When I was diagnosised I researched and researched and begged with myself that I was NOT Bipolar. I have tried my hardest to tell myself I am not ill and that I am fine and then everyone tells me I am not fine and that I am in fact ill and that I am dangerous and that I need structure blah, blah, blah!! I hope you feel better soon... it sucks when your ill with a cold/flu. I am seeing my CPN on Tuesday and my friends have said to talk to him. My Friend last night wanted me to call my CPN today but I said no. I am fine, I think!!

Thanks Theodora,

I can't see clearly that there is anything good about me... I know I am a good person deep down but what makes me a good person I don't know. I have came on here for about a week now and not signed in until evening time and then just hovering around here. Maybe not saying much. Sometimes just reading posts are hard. I never use to get affected by other people's posts though?

Thanks TheByZantine,

In other words I am not completely helpless? I have talents and my life ahead of me.... I should embrace it?

Thanks Hankster,

Haha!! I get what you are saying... it would be handy though if our significant other(s) were in the Mental Health career so as they could see when we are not being our normal selves!!

Thanks Porcupine2,

I think I want to believe on 1 hand I am fine and that everything is rosey but on the other hand I understand to a limit that I am ill and especially at the moment I am all over the place. I think I need to know how to stop all of it and just "move on" if possible.

Thanks Perna,

Is it best to understand a little or a lot of your diagnosis... once a Psych has diagnosised you of having? Or just learn what your symptoms are?

Thanks Madisgram,

I know it will take time... well I think I do. I know for the millionth time there are no quick fixes. I can't seem to get it out of my thick head that there are no quick fixes. I guess in time I will EVENTUALLY get there.

Thanks Indie's OK,

When I write in my journal my thoughts are all messed up and skip around the paper. I have a journal which is mostly all about my moods and I have never shown anyone. My Support Worker asked if I had shown my CPN or Psych and I said no. Psych I only get like 20 mins if that every 6-8 weeks. I cram 4 weeks into 1 hour if not under an hour with my CPN. I just can't show them it.

Thanks Rose76,

I totally get what you are saying. It's like my mission in life is to probably run myself to the ground?!? Too much thinking, too much writing, not getting anywhere??